[ He finally gives Marcus a smile. He trusts him, and that means he'll trust Phil, too. It's settled. They're a team now, aren't they? ]
It does feel like a relief, somewhat, that we're able to be open like this. I've been debating on talking to you about all of this for a while. I still have more information to share, but a break seemed like it would be nice.
And I'm glad you decided to trust me. There's not much of that to go around lately, that much is for sure.
[For... obvious reasons, really, and it isn't like he blames anyone for it. It is what it is, and he and Phil haven't exactly been trusting anyone else either.]
Not that I can say that not trusting people is such a bad idea, either.
[ And that's obviously not the case anymore. Not trusting anyone, that is. ]
Believe it or not, I wasn't open about myself back at home. I was more closed off here, too. But losing Riku made me realize that I can't keep cutting myself off from people.
[ Especially in this particular situation. ]
And...with people being so insistent on making sure I don't lose hope, it's hard to go back to who I was when I first got here. So I owe you, and other people for that.
Yeah, so've I. I had good reasons for it, but... it's hard to undo something you've spent years needing to do, you know?
[He sighs quietly, his smile faltering just a bit.]
I had every reason not to trust people other than Phil, so I never saw much point in trying. Most of the time it didn't matter anyway, since it's not like I had anyone else to care about.
[Except for one person who just up and disappeared without a word for years!]
But it's kinda ironic that you're saying you owe me for something I'm terrible at myself.
[ He relates to this on every level, but the only person Tenn really trusted back at home was himself. Here, though, he's learned a lot about trusting others, for better or worse -- and this is a decision he's making in good faith. He doesn't think Marcus will take advantage of the belief Tenn's put in him.
He looks at him a little more seriously. ]
I know you and Phillip-san are close, and you have each other. But... I want to make it clear that if you feel yourself starting to lose hope while we're here, I'll do what I can to pull you out of that rut, too. Just like you've done for me.
[ A small smile. ]
We're...friends, right? So...as your friend, I'll do my best to support you however I can.
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[ He finally gives Marcus a smile. He trusts him, and that means he'll trust Phil, too. It's settled. They're a team now, aren't they? ]
It does feel like a relief, somewhat, that we're able to be open like this. I've been debating on talking to you about all of this for a while. I still have more information to share, but a break seemed like it would be nice.
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[For... obvious reasons, really, and it isn't like he blames anyone for it. It is what it is, and he and Phil haven't exactly been trusting anyone else either.]
Not that I can say that not trusting people is such a bad idea, either.
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[ And that's obviously not the case anymore. Not trusting anyone, that is. ]
Believe it or not, I wasn't open about myself back at home. I was more closed off here, too. But losing Riku made me realize that I can't keep cutting myself off from people.
[ Especially in this particular situation. ]
And...with people being so insistent on making sure I don't lose hope, it's hard to go back to who I was when I first got here. So I owe you, and other people for that.
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[He sighs quietly, his smile faltering just a bit.]
I had every reason not to trust people other than Phil, so I never saw much point in trying. Most of the time it didn't matter anyway, since it's not like I had anyone else to care about.
[Except for one person who just up and disappeared without a word for years!]
But it's kinda ironic that you're saying you owe me for something I'm terrible at myself.
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He looks at him a little more seriously. ]
I know you and Phillip-san are close, and you have each other. But... I want to make it clear that if you feel yourself starting to lose hope while we're here, I'll do what I can to pull you out of that rut, too. Just like you've done for me.
[ A small smile. ]
We're...friends, right? So...as your friend, I'll do my best to support you however I can.