Yeah, so've I. I had good reasons for it, but... it's hard to undo something you've spent years needing to do, you know?

[He sighs quietly, his smile faltering just a bit.]

I had every reason not to trust people other than Phil, so I never saw much point in trying. Most of the time it didn't matter anyway, since it's not like I had anyone else to care about.

[Except for one person who just up and disappeared without a word for years!]

But it's kinda ironic that you're saying you owe me for something I'm terrible at myself.